shock

I said goodbye to Paige tonight, it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I drove my car for the last time tonight. I went to the world prayer center for the last time in a long time. I hugged grant as we both were crying. I believe his words were "I am going to miss my buddy". Sadness doesn't even come close to how I feel. I am in shock, as I try to process everything, so many feelings overcome me. And as I face hours and hours of packing and then leaving the house at 4am I am not sure where I will find the strength. I have been praying so hard, I have been trying so hard to continue to trust in God. It is all I have at this point. Any prayers would be appreciated. I am off to pack...